love ridden

Anyone remembers Fiona Apple? I first heard of her in 1997, when I was still a very angry and depressed teenager. She was as almost as young as I was. I loved her. For no particular reason, I started humming one of her songs today and remembered when I was deeply in love with a guy who had just dumped me, and I would lie in bed listening to this song over and over crying myself to sleep. (Told you I used to take myself seriously!). Nevertheless, I still think the song is subtly gorgeous, with the piano and violins, and ohh...the sad lyrics.


Love ridden, I've looked at you
With the focus I gave to my birthday candles
I've wished on the lidded blue flames
Under your brow
And baby, I wished for you
Nobody sees when you are lying in your bed
And I wanna crawl in with you
But I cry instead
I want your warm, but it will only make
Me colder when it's over,
So I can't tonight, baby
No, not "baby" anymore - if I need you
I'll just use your simple name
Only kisses on the cheek from now on
And in a little while, we'll only have to wave
My hand won't hold you down no more
The path is clear to follow through
I stood too long in the way of the door
And now I'm giving up on you...